Stolen attention.

Despite the beautiful sunshine outside I feel rather melancholic today.

Souvenirs.

Green Tea KitKat. Japanese people are crazy. I got a bag of these as souvenir from my brother who just arrived home from Osaka last night.

I'm not sure how I'm processing with my happiness project right now. It feels I havent really even concentrated on it lately.  And when it comes to this blog I'm still fighting with the limits I tried to set for myself. It's hard to keep it casual when the actual topic is far away from it.
I think I need a better plan.

No pressure.

Tomorrow I'm leaving my old job behind. One of my this year's goals achieved (a month late, but who cares?)

Pretty, oh so pretty!

When shopping there's two things I definitely enjoy buying the most: cosmetics and lingerie. I would never photograph my underwear collection and post it online but I'll happily show you my other interest!
Here is just most of my lotions and skin care products. There's still my hair products and makeup and....
Some may call it an addiction and/or ridiculously much. I call it happiness. 8)

Ouch.

When on a sick leave, thank goodness for family, friends, online tv-shows, vanilla tea and pudding.

Regrets.

I think I have read this article before but I ran into it again today.
The article is in Finnish and it is about people's last regrets on their death-bed. 

1. I wish I would have had the courage to live my life being honest to myself, and not the life everybody else expected me to have.
2. I wish I wouldn't have worked so much.
3. I wish I would have had the courage to express my feelings.
4. I wish I had stayed in contact with my friends.
5. I wish I had allowed myself to be happier.

I could never forgive myself if I regretted something, especially those mentioned above, when I'm dying. I'm trying really hard to live my life the way that in the end when I look back I don't feel sad and start regretting. It's like throwing you're life away as it was useless. Hrrr. Even only the thought crushes my heart.

I want to make the change before regretting happens.

Happiness.

My Saturday night was saved by my two best friends who came over and cheered me up. 
I'm a lucky girl to have them in my life. :)

What are words.

I heard this song on Monday and later found out the story behind it. It's heartbreaking.
It got me thinking of the meaning of words. 
I am circumspect with the words I say out loud. Or at least I see myself trying quite hard. So far I haven't really had to regret anything I've said.
When it comes to love I have never said anything just because.
When I talk about love I have always meant every word.

Though, how many important sentences have I kept to myself from the ones who deserve to hear them?
How many times have I said only a half of what I wanted to say?
Exactly.
I feel kind of upset now.

Good morning.

If there's someone who loves animals as much as I do then check this out:

32 Pictures That Will Make You Say ''Awwww''

I think I said awww about 32 times. :)

Night owl.

01:40am

Still up even though I know it's hard to function with ~6,5hrs of sleep (I'm a sleepy bear. I need my 8,5. Preferred time for waking up is around 10-11.30am).
Another new thing I could try to change to make my life (and especially mornings) easier: Go to bed on time.
....

Right. That's never going to happen. 

(picture: googled)

Revision.

Writing about happiness is hard. I tried and after 9 posts I already felt distressed. I finally ended up deleting all of them -just a moment ago. Writing a public journal about my personal thoughts felt, well, too personal.

I'm not giving up the plan of chasing happiness. I'm still keen to find out will I be happier this year and I'm still processing the same thoughts I've had since I started this. I just need to make some changes here.

Same plan- less talk- more pictures. Hope this time it'll be better :)